Saturday, May 28, 2005

:: Akhirnya.. ::

Akhirnya perkara yang sepatutnya diselesaikan selesai jua.
Akhirnya perkara yang jadi tanda tanya dah terjawab.
Akhirnya aku tak perlu berteka teki lagi......

Akhirnya betul jua kata hatiku.
Akhirnya aku lega...

Akhirnya aku berfikir sendiri di malam itu.
Akhirnya aku sendiri di bilik itu.
Akhirnya terdetik lagi rasa itu.
Akhirnya aku menangis jua....

Thursday, May 19, 2005

:: My Hectic Day ::

It was almost 8.25 am when I power on the laptop, which is I know it was damn late for me to update Panel’s data as I supposed to do it before 8.30. Tapi lantak lah..yg aku tau ari ni kena update jugak jugak, kalau tak minggu depan berjawab lah ngan si Raj. Luckily, Streamyx line seems give a full cooperation and the updating procedures run smoothly. Berdoa bagai nak rak, jangan lah ada klinik panel call – “Cik Kasma.. data hilang..” :D he he.

Then the phone ringing… “Cik Kasma, sistem pesakit kat pc belakang tak leh run, tp icon dia ada ” tu memang sah sql.ini tak di setup tuh.. “tak pe, sat gi saya singgah klinik” setakat nak set sql.ini tu tak lama..- aku kata.. but the story goes the other way when I arrived there..
– “Cik Kasma, kenapa kami tak leh access internet…. Start2 tukar pc baru ari tu lah”
– “Cik Kasma, PC kat dental tak leh access sistem laa.. tlg tgk sat lagi..”
– “Cik Kasma, PC ni nak minta tolong install printer..”
– “Cik Kasma, naper saya tak leh terima, antar mail, leh tlg tgk tak?”
– “Cik Kasma, Sister Ani kata minta Cik Kasma tambah baik modul registration untuk student baru nak masuk nie..”
– “Cik Kasma, utk update data patient, leh tak kalau setiap kali nak update kena masukkan password..”

<*sigh..*> ni yg aku maleh singgah klinik ni, tak pernah nya sekejap.. so ari ni aku dtg sbg SA, sbg Technician and sbg org Network… Tak baik mengeluh..atleast aku adalah bekas graduan yg bekerja , cuba2 le ingat ramai kengkawan yg menganggur kat luar sana tuh!

Masalah network aku refer kat En Ghani, nak kena setup meeting by next week. Pc kat dental tu bukan bermasalah, tp network point yg rosak- refer kat Hafiz. Masalah mail, setau aku server mail di tukar so..- refer En Amran he he :).

Modul Medical Checkup aku cadang nak review balik lepas aku habiskan Online Registration utk pelajar research IPS, cause student nak online 1 Jun. Modul Medical Checkup akan digunakan early July, more or less I still have 1 month to kukuhkan sistem.

The new requirement for Modul Registration dibuat atas dasar emosi rasanya, sbb selalu dipersalahkan jika data tak lengkap (I guess..). Last time, diorg bertekak depan aku, kind of blaming each other. Dan aku ambik pendekatan diam and dengar je diorg bertekak sampai habis (yelah perasaan user pun nak kena jaga jugak!). Bila dua2 pun diam, aku buat lah penggulungan.. he he and keputusan nya, bertambah lah lg kerja aku unt mampankan, mantapkan dan kukuhkan sistem :P.

Puas aku explain konsep sebenarnya penggunaan login, tp masih gak user berkeras nak masukkan validation setiap kali proses update. I tried to make him get my point and gave my opinion based on my knowledge about practicality of using system, unfortunately he seems not really agree with me. Maka, aku pun guna ayat veto lah – “nanti saya bincang ngan En Zulham, lagipun dia penyelia untuk projek ni” heh!

It was almost lunch time bila aku balik opis, and bos kecik panggil.. “Ma, last registration..senarai kursus tu kita tarik dr SMP kan?” termenung jap, recall balik peristiwa last sem… “mmm.. tapi kita masih refer gak kat time table yg school bg and double check ngan SMP”. Bos kecik tunjuk surat dr salah satu school yg claim diorg kena *tutttt* disebabkan senarai kursus tak appear dalam Sistem Online Registration. Surat pemberitahuan tu ada ‘bau’2 cam nak blame kitaorg je.. hangin la aku! “tak pe, kita cari bukti..nak kena ngadap Datin nie”-cool je bos kecik aku.. ni yg aku respect kat dia, he’s really good in handle things.. cam aku nie ‘emosi’ sikit he he! Selongkar lah aku table-table yg pernah di archieve dalam database, dokumen2 last sem, habis aku belek fail2 lama – cam investigator lak, ahaks! Setelah telek bukti-bukti yg ada and discuss ngan boss kecik, akhirnya kami tau kat mana silap nya kes ni – some core courses can be elective courses for other rancangan ijazah and no one ever mention about this to us. It is clear in the timetable, there is no statement that mention all about this. Furthermore the courses are already group by rancangan ijazah. So I don’t think that we have to be black sheep to put all the blame. <*sigh..*> Users cannot expect us know everything about their work flow. They the one that should guide us, give all the information that needed in system development. Sapa setuju? Angkat tangan.. :).

Keluar dari bilik bos kecik, nampak bos besar ada kat bilik dia. So masuk kejap utk report perkembangan Sistem Klinik. Good news is boss extend lagi eklinik sampai September n boss kata nak tambah ahli utk projek ni, perghhh..lega sikit tp... dalam SKT, boss dah tambah satu lagi sistem utk Sistem Pengurusan Klinik - eklinik utk IPPT. Agaknya lepas nie aku leh bukak klinik sendiri kut he he...

Sebenarnya hajat hati ari ni nak settlekan modul yuran, tapi tak kesampaian. Balik bilik kat opis, aku duk diam-diam bela kod sumber modul yuran sampai kul 6.00 ptg. Nampak gayanya kisah Modul Yuran nie akan bersambung lg pada esok hari………

Friday, May 13, 2005

:: Ada Apa Denganmu - Peterpan ::

Sudah, maafkan aku
Segala salahku
Dan bila kau tetap bisu
Ungkapkan salahmu

Dan aku, sifatku
Dan aku, khilafku
Dan aku, cintaku
Dan aku, rinduku

Sudah, lupakan semua
Segala berubah
Dan kita terlupa
Dan kita terluka

Kutanya malam
Dapatkah kau lihatnya perbedaan
Yang tak terungkapkan
Tapi mengapa
Kau tak berubah
Ada apa denganmu

Hanya malam dapat meleburkan
Segala rasa yang tak terungkapkan
Tapi mengapa kau tak berubah
Ada apa denganmu

Kutanya malam
Dapatkah kau lihatnya perbedaan
Yang tak terungkapkan
Tapi mengapa
Kau tak berubah
Ada apa denganmu

p/s : currently listen to intuisi - Melly

Thursday, May 12, 2005

:: Sakitkah aku?.. ::

kita sakit dan kita makan ubat. nak pilih ubat pun bergantung kepada kita sakit apa, dah lama ke kita sakit... bila kita makan ubat, sakit kita dah beransur baik. bila kita rasa kita dah baik, terus kita berenti dari makan ubat tu. tapi kekadang, sebenarnya kita tak betul-betul sembuh dan sakit tu boleh datang balik... bila kita sakit balik, nak ke kita makan ubat yang sama? ke perlu cari ubat lain yang lagi power?....

"prevention better then cure"

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

:: Bersamamu Malaysia ::

Last 5 day I had attend BTN course at Balik Pulau and .... (samb lain hari leh?.. patriotik sungguh nie )

:: What's a friend? ::

Just surfing around and suddenly catch this article - about the real meaning of being a friend. well I think its depend on one's opinion as this article is more to 'pendapat' than 'fakta' (demam BTN tuh hehe)....

.: What's a friend? :.

I'm writing this for people who get depressed and suicidal because of their friends.

I've noticed that one of the biggest mood effecters is friendship. Most teens tends to get easily upset by their friends, and sometimes their friends don't even know it. I too have been through this growing experience.

I think friend is a luxury. If you have one, great! If you don't have one? No big deal, you'll survive.A friend is someone who makes life fun, who can help you and not just say they will and instead do nothing. A friend is a person who cares, not only when bad things happen but even when they don't.

Human beings naturally look for people who can help them to solve their problems and maybe have a good time with. They call them their best friends so that they can further help solve their problems at regular rate without guilt and without going through all the formalities. It's sad but true.

Being called someone's best friend doesn't mean you have to be their best friend. I learnt it the hard way when i was six and told my 11 years old neighbour that she was my best friend.

"Oh," she said nonchalantly. "Well, you're not my best friend. My best friend is in school." Ouch. But then, I was six : I didn't realise that she was my only friend.

You might say that I'm taking advantage of the people I'm describing. Well, it's up to you to see it in any way you like. But in reality, what are friends? They are people who can use each other. If you have a best friend, you must have something that your friend doesn't have. That's why he needs you and calls you his best friend and vice-versa. Sorry to say this but you're literally using each other (which is okay if it's a constant give-and-take relationship).

What if you can give your friends what they need but they can do absolutely nothing for you? You can say that you don't expect anything in return but how many people really mean it? However, you do expect your friends to treat you the same way you treat them. But sometimes that doesn't work out. Sometimes. you are capable of being more caring towards your friends while they, on the other hand can't. That leaves you feeling deprived and wondering why your friends are so selfish.

However, if you do feel that you enjoy giving even though people treat you like crap, by all means carry on, it's your life. If you don't like it, you can stop. We all have to be selfish sometimes.

Not everyone will agree with me since I'm practically asking people to be cold and selfish. The world would be less warm and friendly that's for sure but I'm only suggesting that poeple do so when they meet people who put them down. Why be nice to people who are mean to you? Why care about people who don't care about you? There's a huge difference between being noble and being stupid.

Why let them treat you like this when you don't deserve it? Why put up with something that you don't like and will never like? Why change yourself to fit your friends? Why not find other friends who are able to click with you without you having to change yourself?

I feel that we should never give ourselves holly in a friendship. Give happily and openly but never wholly. You have to know how to detach yourself from your friends so that when they hurt you, you won't be hurt.

Just remember that not everyone is as lucky as some people are. If you have great wonderful firends, good, you've found some lovely peole. But for anyone who is depressed and upset because of how your friends have treated or are treating you, I say, why let your friends make you feel this way? Who are they? Friends? I think not.

Yorshee, Negri SembilanThe Star
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